Will my therapist reject me if i hint at these feelings toward her.?

Im a 30yr old female. I grew up in a dysfunctional and neglectful household. At 18 i developed psychological problems. I contacted a therapist myself and scd and paid her fees myself. I had no confidence or self esteem, i thought i was stupid. My mum is a mentally ill alcoholic, now in care. I have contact with her and its fine, i love mum but know she doesnt have the capacity to mother as i want. I know that and its ok. Every so often i have set backs and suffer depression and anxiety. . I've known my shrink for 14 years. I havent seen her consistantly for 14 years...on an off, could go 4 yrs without contact. But...i have fond memories of our sessions. Because in the sessons was the first place i got hope that things could be ok for me. She helped me see i was actually intellegant and my confidence increased so i'm able to do ok for myself. I've had a lot of stress again. I contacted her recently. She recognised me on the phone before i said my name. Seh said for me she'd see me anytime & gave me generous reductions. I've always dreamed about her being my mom. I had other shrinks but i never enjoyed the sessions, only with her. Coz shes special and i feel a very special bond. I've skimeed across this subject wtih her. I've told her i've seen other therapists when i couldnt get to her (when i lived away) but i never came away feeling happy and hopeful. Just more depressed and they seemd to instill in me a feelin of fear that i needed a load of help and tried to get me to commit to loads of sessions. She never made me commit to any sessions, i always decide when i need a session. And she always points out how well i've done and i come away feeling hopeful. I've told her this. She said she feels we work well together. But i didnt tell her about how fond i am of her...i think its too personal. What do you think? It saddens me to think the only contact i can have wtih her is when i pay for sessions, even though i thoroughly enjoy her company when we chat outside of sessions