Do the holidays make anyone else ever feel like this?

I used to be excited and joyful during the holidays, a feeling of excitement and anticipation for all the family games and food and just fun that was to be had during thanksgiving and christmas. Ever since my divorce and really it started when my grandmother died, the family get-to-gethers have seemed a little empty and everyone seems a little less into it. I can't seem to find the joy in the holiday season I once seemed to have in abundance. I know sometimes things can't stay the same as you get older, but sometimes I wish I never had good holiday memories to remind me what a lame season this is now. I look back on the joyful memories and wish those times were back again and wish the now was like it used to be. I feel so lonely and empty, single and without the family of my own I had such high hopes of creating. It makes me very sad and depressed. Anyone else ever feel like this?